The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

Author: Kissa  //  Category: Personal

Things have been pretty wonderful lately, and I am so grateful. Wedding plans are coming along nicely, lots to do, but that’s expected. Honeymoon plans have begun, shopping for airfare now and can’t wait for the sweet moment when we land on that beautiful island. I’m beginning to find balance in my career and personal life. Though I’m still building, setting a good foundation for success, and working through the details, I am beginning to find peace amidst all the “distractions” and “negativity” that come around here and there. Do I choose to let the negativity get to me? No. Do I choose to dwell on a situation I can’t control? Not anymore. I just let all the sadness out and cry to myself (or to Charlie) for a bit and let it go. Why? Because thanks to God I can see the world in a brighter light. The good, the bad, and the ugly. But it sure is peaceful up here. :)

So why am I writing this personal post? Once again, it’s to hold me accountable. I’m not willing to go back to where I used to be or be who I used to be. I don’t want to go back to uncertainty, feeling lost, overwhelmed, and all those things that put knots (bad knots) in my stomach. I don’t want to be chasing something knowing that in my gut, I should be focusing on something else. And I have to admit, the past years of my life have been just that. But I’m going to stop, and start chasing what I really want out of life. So here you go, internet, this is what I need you to hold me accountable for:

1. Learn to say no. Simple and clear.
2. Filtering out the negativity in my life – people and things. Don’t get me wrong, I’m grateful for everything I’ve experienced and everyone that I’ve met, it has brought me to this very moment (In fact, sometimes thinking about the series of events that lead you up to the present is a fascinating topic for me. But that’s another post all in itself.). But things change, people change, the world turns, and I have to move on. Not for spite, to burn a bridge, or to forget – no. But because I want to experience continued positivity, challenge, and happiness. The people and things I want around me are the people and things that are going to make me better. Challenge me to learn more, inspire me so I can inspire others, make me want to be a better person so I can give more…those are the things I want in my life.
3. Believe in myself. I have the hardest time accepting who I am now. So much so that I seek assurance and acceptance from others. While that’s called for some times I know that I need to make my own decisions for myself and if it sits right with me then I should at least try. I always wish I was doing something else, but really, how is that a way to live? Today, I will build the blocks to be happy with what I have and who I am now while trying to better myself and achieve my goals for the future.

Ok, let’s leave it at that for now. The last thing I want is to overwhelm myself. Ok, I have to admit. I’m a little nervous to share this post, but I have to. I know it’ll be for the best. So here we go, Internet. Who wants to help me stay accountable for these things? :)


One Response to “The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly”

  1. Amber Moon Says:

    Love you friend. You’re incredible.